Black rainbows and bloody rain

so I know it's been a month. sorry for that. been busy studying for my trials.
 anyway, not much happened, except for the following :

A chamber for Goths.
I've a new found obsession for Goths. Pale skin + dark clothing. Awesome.
 I've been trying to go extra light ( skin tone ) Not that I'm a freakishly tanned person. On a scale of one to ten, I'd have to say I'm a 3. Wanna break the chains that have strapped me to the Sun.
Malaysia's beaming rays are making it difficult for me to achieve my pale goal.
I'll work on it though. Oh and btw, <3 The Veronicas. Pretty Lolitas.

Minimizing hate.
Well, I did kinda resent my friend,Vi. I think her popularity has definitely
overshadowed our friendship. And I did sort of envy her a bit because
 she does have people flirting with her and stuff.
So do my guy friends and it kills that I don't have someone.
 I mean I couldn't care less about it but it would be nice. So,
I confronted her and yeah we're on a good track now. So yeah.

Forgetting you, définitivement.


You hadn't cross my mind at all - which is good. 
I am loveless at the moment and that's cool with me and hopefully
it'll stay that way so that nothing can get in my way of reaching my goals. 
After all, loving someone ain't mandatory
nor it's an obligation.




Bipolar unravelling.




It's quite hard to keep my feelings in check these days.
 One minute I'm euphoric and the next I'm suicidal.
But I hide all of it with a trusty mask to keep myself composed at all times.
 It's just necessary so that I won't have 
to explain myself to anyone. It's been tough but I'll get through it. #Optimism


An outcast.


Yeah I do feel like an outcast in my bunch of friends. 
I am this demented whale while they're all super awesome 
and good looking - in my perspective. 
It kinda hurts sometimes because all eyes are on them and I do get pushed 
aside. I'll be like at the corner reading some book,very quiet. 
That's me. I'm usually like that. Most teachers say
that and asked why am I so woebegone almost everytime &
 all I do is smirk because what was I suppose to say?
 I was born this way? Pfft.


Solving my way out of the maze.


I will eventually succeed and hopefully get 7 As for my PMR. 
I've been working hard for it and really, I want it to be 
superb. God's planning everything out for me 
and I never testify his plans because they're usually cool.


And I guess that's it for now. Will update in August(busy). bon débarras.