Don't let me get me.

This past few days were hell. I just went to school and came into class so irritable and cranky,i knew something was wrong with me. I've been having so many mood swings,constantly slicing my arm and feeling every bit of heart ache. It's all because of me. I have been comparing myself with so many other people who has the damned packs,biceps,triceps and muscles. There's this guy who's name is XXXXXXX is like hot and well groomed. He has the girl I likeD. She's fcuked up lucky to have a guy like him instead of me. He's smart,classy and whatever a girl dreams off.And that is not me. I just want to be me without being scared of myself.I wanna be free. I wanna show the middle finger up in the air without being judged. I wanna say the 'F' word without being dissed. I am sick of being compared to him. He is he and I am me . I wanna be somebody else. it's so irritating. I want to be living in someone else's life. But that's not gonna be me. I stand up for the one's who think that they are ugly but they are not.Because united we stand,divided we fall.

Tracks of The Past Two Weeks..

Mizz Nina( best Malaysian Artist) - Takeover

It's Britney,Bitch in I Wanna Go.

We will marry the night ,Gaga .

I'm really into you,too,Lopez .

Then again,the heart always betrays the brain..

Sometimes I do tend to ask myself,is it really worth it getting my heart broken again all because of one girl ? My brain is always the one slapping me in the face when it comes to heartbreaks but my heart won't seem to listen. I do feel like a robot at times. I become so empty at heart,so confused at brain and sop lifeless in love. Sometimes,I just wanna re-programme my mind so that there will be no more agony. But I know it's stupid but ,hey , a guy can dream you know.
 I am gonna go now
So before I go
I'm gonna
post a
song
XOXO