Don't let me get me.

This past few days were hell. I just went to school and came into class so irritable and cranky,i knew something was wrong with me. I've been having so many mood swings,constantly slicing my arm and feeling every bit of heart ache. It's all because of me. I have been comparing myself with so many other people who has the damned packs,biceps,triceps and muscles. There's this guy who's name is XXXXXXX is like hot and well groomed. He has the girl I likeD. She's fcuked up lucky to have a guy like him instead of me. He's smart,classy and whatever a girl dreams off.And that is not me. I just want to be me without being scared of myself.I wanna be free. I wanna show the middle finger up in the air without being judged. I wanna say the 'F' word without being dissed. I am sick of being compared to him. He is he and I am me . I wanna be somebody else. it's so irritating. I want to be living in someone else's life. But that's not gonna be me. I stand up for the one's who think that they are ugly but they are not.Because united we stand,divided we fall.