Confusion mixed with a loathe of reality

So,life's been pretty confusing.. To start with,I found out I'll be in the first class and YOU will be in the last,so we'll probably have P.E together which will cause a nervous breakdown for me. And Ry,even if you are transferring to another school,we will still remember you,don't worry,we will stay in contact and see each other when there's and event(if i'm not imprisoned).. Thank you or being there for the past two years.. You were truly an amazing person.. I share all of my secrets with you and that's kinda rare of me..
   Moving on with the confusion,I just don't know if I do like you or I don't.. It's like different personas of me.. I know I do somehow but it's probably worthless to think about you every minute and everyday. I was in Mid Valley the other day [My birthday,peeps] and I did see your group of schmucks but I didn't see you.. I just don't know and I'm very confused..
   [A mental condition called Dissociative Identity Disorder- which I just found out,I think I might be having that,I just don't know,VERY confusing.]