Christmas & New Years

Hi ya'll. It's been a while. Well, Christmas and New Years passed by. Fast,right? Anyways, I had a mini gathering with the family at my Uncle's house and stayed there till 5.00 IN THE MORNING. The next day I have to go to Cameron Highlands for Christmas. So I woke up at 10 which I only had 5 hours of sleep. God, I was so jet lagged ! I had dark eye circles and breakouts - yes,i'm that sensitive. But I had fun. But on Christmas eve, I went to church for midnight mass. It was for 3 hours. It was okay.I enjoyed the feeling of entering church. Random people just say Hi to each other with a smile. I liked that,I really did. Most people are stuck up these days to even care. So, it was nice. When I got to the house, IT WAS BREAKFAST TIME. LOL. I has my breakfast at 1pm. I had like Beef stew with whiskey and Stout. Turkey. Many awesome stuff. It was a small gathering. No presents coz a lot of my relatives died in 2011.

Moving on to New Years. A few days before the New Years, I sent a message to that person saying that I apologize if I did anything that could be offensive. I waited for days for "it" to reply me. Till this day, no reply. I was hoping for a reply on the 1st of January but you know,I didn't. it's okay. I mean life will still go on. School started. God was I nervous. I am now in the morning session. which means waking up early, sleeping in the shower and stuff. It's fine. But I was even more excited to see that person who still is ignoring me. The best part was when I get to go home at 1 o clock. So I had time to basically chill and take a nap. But fuck that, SERIOUSLY?! I HAD TO BABYSIT A SEVEN YEAR OLD AFTER A  ROUGH DAY ?! I was really stressed out. I mean, be the mother to your child. I'm 15 ! SERIOUSLY. Don't give me a lame excuse saying that you're busy at work. WHO CARES ABOUT THAT?! WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT IS YOUR OWN DAUGHTER. AND STOP LYING TO US SAYING THAT YOU'LL BE HOME BY 7 WHEN YOU'LL BE REACHING LATE. YOU'RE SUCH A BITCH. GROW UP. YOU'RE 37 AND HAVING A CHILD. EFF THE MONEY. YOU CAN GET ANOTHER DECK OF DOLLARS BUT YOU CAN'T GET ANOTHER DAUGHTER. GROW UP. SEE REALITY. JUST UNDERSTAND WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU AND WHAT'S NOT. LIKE THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE I RESENT YOU. GET OVER YOURSELF. I am really trying to focus on my PMR examinations which will contribute to my future and if I fail this, don't even bother talking to me ever again.

On the bright side, I have seen my friends. Not Mary coz she transferred. I still had a bit of fun. Though most of the time I was just faking a smile and a laughter. Still can't believe Gueen will be coming soon after PMR. I haven't seen her in ages ! #excited