Being free is all I ever wanted

Lately people got me all tied up, there's a countdown waiting for me to erupt.

People have to just STOP DEPENDING ON ME TO DO STUFF. Don't your kids have hands and legs ?! Can't you see like their taking advantage of me ?! So freaking pissed ! It's okay when no one is home and I can walk the dog - when I'm asked. It irritates the fuck out of me when I have to walk all the way there  to walk the dog(which I don't mind) and I find them sleeping - AFTERNOON ALREADY !

And you're the one always giving me the prep talk about growing up and being independent. SCREW THAT. Look at yourself first before judging me. Please lah. You're a freaking grown up. If you can't even take care of a dog,then you might as well die alone. I had enough tolerating you. _|_

#IAMMOTHAFUGGINIRRITATED

I don't mind people depending on me, I really don't mind helping. BUT when your kids are there,ASK THEM TO HELP YOU. I already have my own housework to do and m to like o another house, that crossed the line. I AM A HUMAN,NOT A ROBOTIC SLAVE WITH A 24/7 SERVICE.

The Vampire Diaries >> Bulgarian Vixen

Finally completed Season 2. Gonna start on season 3 soon. Man,the first time I saw Klaus in season 2,I really got scared. The dude's a loonatic. He's freaky !! - yet I don't know why so many girls are attracted to him. Damon and Stefan is actually reverting into their old ways. Damon is actually being a good hearted soul and Stefan is being a badass- Thanks to Klaus.

Epic/Awkward moment :
When Damon and Elena kissed,Katherine interrupted it. LOLOLOL.

Like get a grip Elena ! Don't go crying and bitching when Stefan goes to Klaus's side. He did it for you. I personally thought she would die so that many of everyone's problem will come to an end. But it didn't. -.-

Of all the characters, I LOVE KATHERINE. The woman's feisty yet freaking smart. Very sly. Something nice and seductively demonic about that smile on that face of hers. She's kinda idiotic though when Klaus compelled her. For instance, Klaus compelled her to sit down and stab her legs. And when she's bored,SWITCH LEGS. WTF.

I guess that's it for now.. Until then, stay tuned on TV8 @Astro OR watch it on the Internet if you want the exclusive blood-thirsty drama that happens in The Vampire Diaries.

GO TEAM KATHERINE !!! :3

Ma Ma Ma Mary

[ A shout out to my friend,Mary whom I call Ry ! You've been an amazing person and no one can replace you. It's sad that you're laving us but don't worry,we will still keep in touch and also we will meet up if there's an opportunity. Don't worry about us,we will be fine. Don't cry anymore,kay? Be strong and you'll have your friends Crystal and Melissa there - I think]

Mary,for you.

Confusion mixed with a loathe of reality

So,life's been pretty confusing.. To start with,I found out I'll be in the first class and YOU will be in the last,so we'll probably have P.E together which will cause a nervous breakdown for me. And Ry,even if you are transferring to another school,we will still remember you,don't worry,we will stay in contact and see each other when there's and event(if i'm not imprisoned).. Thank you or being there for the past two years.. You were truly an amazing person.. I share all of my secrets with you and that's kinda rare of me..
   Moving on with the confusion,I just don't know if I do like you or I don't.. It's like different personas of me.. I know I do somehow but it's probably worthless to think about you every minute and everyday. I was in Mid Valley the other day [My birthday,peeps] and I did see your group of schmucks but I didn't see you.. I just don't know and I'm very confused..
   [A mental condition called Dissociative Identity Disorder- which I just found out,I think I might be having that,I just don't know,VERY confusing.]

How To Understand The Opposite Sex

You can't.







- THE END

Manifesting Life

Bueno. As ya'll know ,Halloween has just passed by. HAPPY HALLOWEEN. Let's hold hands and chant Bloody Mary while playing with an Ouija Board. Just joking. I'm no maniac !I was dressed as "A guy who doesn't have a costume so decided to dress in BLACK" x)

Continuing the manifesto,
       Ya'll heard about the world-breaking news about Kim Kardashian's divorce with Kris Humphries? I KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN. Just never expected it to happen in such a short amount of time. 72 DAYS !?!? That includes - $10 mil burnt,heartbreak,no more hope,no kids,return of ring and paparazzi going all wild with the broken-hearted KK. I know I am being mean but she should just leave him. He was just using her for the fame. Let go,Kimmy. And hope this would be a life-lesson to those hopeless romantics - me =.= OUT THERE.

Ending the manifesto,
       The holidays are just getting started ! And that will include watching my all time favorite VAMPIRE DIARIES,hybernating,breathing,eating and THE USUAL. JUST TWO MORE DAYS ! TWO MOTHA F***ING DAYS AND I WON'T SEE "IT" FOR THE NEST 2 MONTHS :'( Sad,never had the opportunity to talk,hold hands,smile with "IT". It hurts a lot to have the person you like-the person who light up all the bulbs in your eyes and painted the whole world, to like somebody else and posting about either love or heartbreak statuses BUT they are not meant for you. HURTS LIKE KUH-RA-ZYY.

Time for me to say goodbye for now. I have been with Adele's music for a few days now. Time to complete the journey of mending a broken heart with empowerment in her soulful songs x)

Dominate is a strong word,I prefer taking over the world.

FINALLY,ONE WEEK OF NO STRESS AND KICKING BACK HOME AND RELAXING. I EARNED THIS DAY.AWESOME-NESS. Anyways,it was so awesome when I went to MTM. Pool side. Half naked guy y the poolside. The usual. It was held at the Boulevard Mid Valley hotel. IT WAS SO AWESOME. Shopping,Starbucks,Eating,Listening,Buffet-ing. Communicate,Cooperate,Conquer. It was  good day - or at least it kinda was.
 I still can't move on. God knows why. I'm trying. Each day is an ounce of hope and a gallon of faith. It is saddening. But I have to let go. It's just not worth holding on to nothing.
 Moving on to world domination,

I WANNA CONQUER EVERY COMME DES ARCON OUTLET AND HAVE 'EM ALL. AWESOME SHIZ.  THEIR CLOTHES ARE SO EMO AND AWESOME. THERE'S NOTHING LIKE HAVING DREAMS INTO REALITY.

Criminal with a heart.

People are guaranteed to run this town with these babies.

Kawaii.

If we live in a small town,we wouldn't have cultural opportunities like this.


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Wires,Connections & Axes

Been a year since I let you go,

Couldn't listen to a joke or rock and roll,

Curvy cars drove a truck right through my heart.

On my birthday you gave me a heart of gold,

With a the piano playing and no broke,

This time I'm not leaving without you - Lady Gaga ~ with my twist of words

Anyways,it's been months and I still couldn't forget you,it's like everyday you're at the Multi Purpose Hall and I'll just sit and look at you and you would smile. The smile that lightens up a whole room. It's hard letting go of nothing. Really,it is. You were the one who put the wires in my head,connected my heart to yours and murdered my happiness with an axe </3

Nevermind,I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you

Don't forget me,I begged

I'll remember what you said

"Sometiems it last in love,but sometimes it hurts instead" - Adele

Brand New Eyes

New beginnings. Why ? You just came and light up the bulbs in my eyes and programmed my brain to see a better world,with you :) The only thing I love about you is you. Though we never had a single conversation before - fail, you still brought the lights and brought me into wonderland.

Now to the downside,EXAMS / FINALS ! GAHHHHH ! STRESSED MAX. GONNA GROW WHITE HAIR,HUNCHED AND TIRED. I HATE IT. Kay bye ;)

They never told me that humans are puppets.

Yo,what's up ? it's been awhile since I last blogged because I was a wreck completing my assignments #lastminutefail Anyhow,the 1-week holidays started and boy I am relieved !Basicly the programming in my head had taken it's toll on me. I was going nuts and I know I needed a break before something bad happens and Thank Lord I am getting a break now. So,what I discovered this month :
1) love is in the air,not for me
2) Malays use the phrase 'Tak boleh,puasa' or 'Cannot,fasting'
3) I'm a fat bitch

Like seriously this bitch came right to my face and just compared me to this douche and she said 'your'e not manly enough,you look at people and smile,like that's not manly and other crap'.I mean like IM TOO FUCKING THIS IM TOO FUCKING THAT like WHATTHEFUCK!? so basicly what she's trying to say is Smiling affects masculine people ? I mean like she can just go to hell or wherever she came from because I am not changing myself all because of one stupid remark,or at least I hope I don't. I guess that's it. Byeee..

Vulgarities detected. Not suitable for people under 18 :)

FINALLY THE THREE DAYS OF FCUKED UP EXAMS ARE OVER !! STAYED UP TILL MIDNIGHT AND WOKE UP AT DAWN JUST TO STUDY.. MY BRAIN IS FIRED NOW..so it will be quick
Maths,History,BM & Moral.. Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you :)
DUDE,LIKE HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAFTA SAY IT. JUST GO AND GET HER ALREADY !! YOUR'E KILLING ME !! IF YOU LIKE HER THEN GO FOR IT. STOP BEING A MESSED UP BITCH !
DUDETTE,ALL BECAUSE I'M SWEET AND NICE DOES NOT MEAN I AM NOT FURIOUS ABOUT YOUR BACKSTABBING CRUELTY. GET OVER YOURSELF ALREADY. THE PAST IS THE PAST. THE FUTURE IS ABOUT YOU AND HIM. #thisaintfottballsowhythefuckdoyouwannatackleme!?

(If this post have too much vulgarities,please be informed I was in a three-day caffeine diet and has a fried brain now.Thank you *smiley face)

Don't let me get me.

This past few days were hell. I just went to school and came into class so irritable and cranky,i knew something was wrong with me. I've been having so many mood swings,constantly slicing my arm and feeling every bit of heart ache. It's all because of me. I have been comparing myself with so many other people who has the damned packs,biceps,triceps and muscles. There's this guy who's name is XXXXXXX is like hot and well groomed. He has the girl I likeD. She's fcuked up lucky to have a guy like him instead of me. He's smart,classy and whatever a girl dreams off.And that is not me. I just want to be me without being scared of myself.I wanna be free. I wanna show the middle finger up in the air without being judged. I wanna say the 'F' word without being dissed. I am sick of being compared to him. He is he and I am me . I wanna be somebody else. it's so irritating. I want to be living in someone else's life. But that's not gonna be me. I stand up for the one's who think that they are ugly but they are not.Because united we stand,divided we fall.

Tracks of The Past Two Weeks..

Mizz Nina( best Malaysian Artist) - Takeover

It's Britney,Bitch in I Wanna Go.

We will marry the night ,Gaga .

I'm really into you,too,Lopez .

Then again,the heart always betrays the brain..

Sometimes I do tend to ask myself,is it really worth it getting my heart broken again all because of one girl ? My brain is always the one slapping me in the face when it comes to heartbreaks but my heart won't seem to listen. I do feel like a robot at times. I become so empty at heart,so confused at brain and sop lifeless in love. Sometimes,I just wanna re-programme my mind so that there will be no more agony. But I know it's stupid but ,hey , a guy can dream you know.
 I am gonna go now
So before I go
I'm gonna
post a
song
XOXO

Sorry :D

So sorry for not blogging .. I know I broke my promise but I was having too much fun in the holidays .. Anyways,WATCH PRIEST AND X-MEN !! they are just so awesome ! THE FEMALE PRIEST WAS DANG HAWT AND THE MYSTIQUE IN X MEN IS SIZZOWIN ! ;)

Le Garce ! ;)

Mushi-mushi,
I know it's been a while since I've blogged .. All because of the dammed exams ! Who invented exams ?! ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME ?! Nevermind.Toleration is much needed and used before the TWO WEEKS OF HOLIDAYS ! :D Can't wait for that day ! By the way,acid splashers are bitches so beware of them,ya'll .. They splash acid at you you pour acid in their throats(if you have any) or you can simply use a brick and hit their heads :)
Can't believe I am saying this but I have to study now and I'll be back in 5 days ;)

Arrigato-Gozaimas (whatever you spell it)  :)

Phonography

Another song by Britney Spears.. It's very catchy and nicee .. Also very sexy ;)

Cut the bullying,B!tch

A reminder to all of you.When a person is trying to feel good about herself or himself for once,don't ruin that chance.No one can see the change if they don't be the change. So if any of you are out there insulting people,go bully someone your own size or even better,don't bully at all.I am against bullying because it is a bitch.Don't be a drag,Just Be A Queen :)

If you think I'm coming back,don't hold your breath.

Life gives you a basket full of mother f*cking lemons . Do you wanna make them into lemonade or do you want to squeeze them into people eyes who pissed the %^%^$% outta you ? Think wisely . If you ask me,I won't waste my time .. Lemonade sounds real good .
I f you don't know what the %^%# I'm talking about .I am actually saying :
Life gives you hard times with hard people. So you wanna ignore it and move on or do you wanna choose violence and hatred to those people who made you very angry ? Think hard . Lemons are sour .So are bad times. But if you add some sugar,it will be sweeter.Meaning,if you have something to do . No matter how tough it is,do it with a smile .In the end of the day,you are your own role model :)
Remember,easy peasy lemon squeezy ;)

A short prayer goes a LONG way :)

Japan,your'e inspirational :)

Another massive 7.0 earthquake has struck Japan just 3-4 weeks after the tsunami and earthquake .. It is so saddening .. What did they do to deserve this ? I know the mean ones do but waddabout the innocent ones ? The children,new born babies .. THEY ARE INNOCENT ! Let's continue praying and hope that God will perform a miracle :) <3

Pray for Japan

Ya'll heard abt the Japan earthquake and tsunami right ? Let's pray for them lost souls and also the ones who survived .. My heart goes to them <3 Saranghaeyo :)

Who cares if you disagree,you are not me :)

When people wants you to do things and live your life their way,ask them to go suck a lemon because this is YOUR life,YOU control YOUR life and what YOU do because no one controls YOU but YOU :)
When people calls you fat ? Tell them straight to the point that you can lose weight but what can they do about their face ? Ironic,right? People call you ugly ? Just tell them,I'm beautifully sculptured .
When people say you lack entertainment,tell them ,you will see a whole different side of me if you want 'entertainment' .. See,life has ups an downs .. Turn that frown upside down like GET A GRIP ! No need to be that whole satanic stuff .. You are the best in your own way .. One is one and never can be replaced ;)                                                          

Thanks for the glasses Viwern !

Hey,smile :)

I HEARTS YOU ;)

Peter,Claudia & Saly .. THANK YOU SO MUCH ! Your dedications has inspired me and motivated me to go further :) Thanks so much for the support :) Hugs#

New beginnings ..

Sorry for not blogging for a while .. WAS TIGHT.
Anyways,I guess no one can replace Ha**l .. She likes another guy and that guy happens to like her .. That guy happens to be my best friend also .. We are so close that we can almost be brothers .. Anyways,not anymore.. I just feel so betrayed .. I mean this guy says like 'I don't like anybody' and all that crap .. Like they are keeping things from me .. I just can't take people like that.. We are not in talking terms .. A reminder : If someone is worth forgetting,just forget,no matter how much it hurts :)
He's all muscular,religious and everything a girl could want .. I am the guy's version of a 'Plain Jane' .. I might not fulfill a girl's expectations but .. I can always shower a girl with love :)
Well,I guess that's it .. I'll try to keep ya'll posted ;) 

Why do you do this to me ?

Case was settled .. We went back to normal after me,vi and gueen argued .. It's an imperfect mess at it's best .. I'm cut out to be single .. not in a relationship an never will be .. You just need a big slap on the face to make you realise .. Sighh .. I just don't know where to start anymore ...
>anger< FUCK THOSE FRIGGIN MALAYS ! COME AND LOOK FOR MESSES FOR WHAT?! IDIOTS !
GO SUCK YOUR LEMONS !

New Years and Old Pasts ..

Hey .. HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! I can' believe that 2010 was so fast ... I wonder what 2011 awaits .. Anyways ..I went to 2a2 .. Cried because of annoyance,suffered more heartbreak and eventually started loving it .. (the class -.-) As you can see .. My crush lied to me and said she has a bf in another school but actually tht bf of hers is in my school and is in form  .. I MEAN SERIOUSLY ?! THE TRUTH IS WAY BETTER ! Sigh .. I can't even look at her .. Sobs .. But anyways it's fine ... I'm already used topeople lying to me and CHEATING so i don't give a fuck anymore .. Ciao ..